When Angelina was younger like she is in the picture I put her in daycare. Working, and going to school is a lot when you are a single mom and I needed help. About a month ago I took her out of daycare and decided to live off of loans quit my job and stay with her during the day. Lately I have been letting my little one watch a lot of TV. I have been a stay at home mom for only a month and going to class at night. I have tried and tried to engage and interact with my daughter more but it seems as though there is a fifty pound wait dragging behind me. Angelina deserves so much better she deserves to be able to play freely, going outside, playing inside with kids. So I decided to put her back in daycare, I have been staying at home with her for a month or so now and attending class at night. I just cant do the simplest of things for her, as pathetic as that sounds the thing I feel worst about is the fact that she isn't even in daycare yet and I already feel relieved. I keep reminding myself I am not relieved that I don't have spend as much time with my daughter but that she will be happier and maybe with going to class during the day it will help me shake this depression I cant seem to rid myself of completely. There have been times where I just didn't want to get off the couch so I let her watch show after show after show. I am ashamed of that and I don't want my daughter to suffer because I am having a hard time staying strong and handling the everyday stresses of life. It is just pathetic.
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